Thursday 3 April 2008

Rest

I am going to take some time off. I feel so crushed that I can't play poker any more. It's making me tilt, so I'm not even sure I'm playing well any more. I know I shouldn't give in, but I was hoping this would be my way out. Instead, it is just more bars on the cage.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

boots sez:

"I know I shouldn't give in, but..."

Yesterday I did some more work on the roof of the house I've been building. I put about a third of the ridge-caps on the roof. Then when it was time to begin the next portion, I noticed that I was tired, and that the weather was threatening to sour on me.

I stopped for the day. I could say that I "gave in", or I could have climbed back up, feeling less than my physical best, and fought the weather.

I determined that it was time to do something else for a while. If the weather is acceptable today, I'll put up the next bunch of ridge-caps.

When I'm on the ground shovelling snow, sometimes it begins to snow again. It is one thing when you are standing on the ground to dare the wind to blow harder, to blow more snow. It is another thing when you are on top of a roof. There have been times when I've dared the weather from the top of the roof, times I have not.

"..I was hoping this would be my way out. Instead, it is just more bars on the cage."

What you know, what you believe, what you conclude at the moment, how you feel in an instant; those are different things.

You know you are not in the zone, you know that you are emotionally tired. Perhaps for now you need "know" nothing more. Needing to rest does not make one weak and resting does not mean one has failed.