Dunno

Can't win a fucking hand at the moment. Maybe not playing well, maybe don't know how to play at all.

I call a raise on the button with AQs, flop it Q high, the other guy has AA. I call a minraise with TT in position, lead a 9 high flop, third guy gets it in, he has a set.

Last night, I played a home game. I didn't play particularly well, a bit looser than I'm comfortable with, but I was doing okay. Some guy limps UTG. He's a retarded bad player who limps an extremely wide range. A couple of other limps, I check with Q9s. I can't remember what the flop was, but I called a bet legitimately and by the turn I had a gutshot and a flush draw. The other guy shoved. The pot offered me a fair bit better than 2.5 to 1. I had 13 sure outs and because this guy is completely fucked in the head, I figured I might have four more. Sure enough he had paired his kicker. His holding: Q8. I missed all 17 outs. Still, I had a stack, and used it to shove several times. Some horrible loosetard, who had earlier called a raise with 96 in the small blind ffs goes, you don't have any skill, don't you know any other moves, play flops blah blah. And I said, stfu, this is skill, which didn't satisfy him. So I shove AT, and retard, who has pissed his stack down to a couple of K, calls with J9. Obviously he rivers a 9.

So I chisel it back up to about 7K and this other guy, who has been pretending to have a clue, making a big show of going over hands when he has to make a call, limps. I have J9 in the SB, and I consider pushing, but I've pushed a fair bit over limps, so I figure he may be trying a trap, and instead of folding, my more usual play, I complete and BB checks. The flop is all spades, which is meh, but it checks round. The turn makes me a straight and I bet out. Mr Hollywood shoves and I snapcall. Basically, yes, he can have the made flush, but he can have lots and lots of other hands: Asx with or without a pair, two pair, air, whatever. I can't fold a straight and I betted enough to make it very hard for me to fold, so that I could get value from the calltard and one-card. Well, he had the flush. He had limped with J2s. WTF?

See, that right there is what makes poker hard to bear sometimes. I was fifth in this tourney. The remaining players were W, a weak player who basically donates online; the calltard, who is a complete fish, only still in the game because he sucked out on me twice; the fish who called my raise with 96 and basically hit every flop every hand, and played nearly every hand at that; and a guy who thinks that J2s is a decent hand to limp fivehanded just because you have a big stack. Not making any money in that company is rubbish.

But how come I wasn't better situated? How come I didn't have a bigger stack? Wouldn't a decent player have won there? I dunno. I just dunno.